Get clear on what you want, view it from the softest lens available to you, and then objectively assess what stands between you and the worlds that you so endearingly hold within your heart. There is a lot going on, and each person has multiple facets to the same situation. Expecting others to get it may not be the answer, and expecting yourself to hold it all together may not be the answer either. Accepting slip ups as a part of life and not beating yourself or others over it may just be what you need to enfold in this moment.
Cosmic tip: Find gratitude for the tiniest blessings to keep yourself gazing at the sun.